47 min...

47 min dige moonde ta masir maloom she, too in moddat mishe chat kard, mishe navar goosh dad, mishe kapid, ya mishe be sedaye rizesh abb az saghf be khatere baroon goosh dad...be shakhse ke daram az khab mimiram. in 2 hafte shaba adatam shode 11 beram bekhabam ama ta 2,3 khabam nabare, baad sobham 9 pasham. baad hameye bikhabi ha jam mishe ye dafe ye shab mesle emshab daghoone daghoon misham. ghiafam alan mesle oon mard chaaghe shode poshte computer ke ba rishe nazade o ye aragh gir va cigar bedastesh shikamo dade hava va dare say mikone mokhe ye dokhtare 30 saal koochiktar az khodesho bezane. farghesh fagaht injas ke shikam har chi zoor mizanam dar nemiaram, cigar ke bade, va kesiam nist ke mokhesh zade she..az in hame yaare interneti ke dashtim va ye zamani behemoon majal nemidadan az jamoon boland shim faghat ye khatere moonde. Tanha yaare internetie man in rooza bazie takhteye microsfot hast. oonam taaze maskharast choon taaseh random nist va joori miad ke hamishe ta khali midi taraf bezane!

alan shod 42 min... 42 min dige bayad ba yeki harf bezanam ke asalan barahs mohem nist man ki hastam, faghat midoone ke bayad esm begire o moshakhassat va soal haye ye ahmagho javab bede. Otagham ham ke vaghti negah mikonam halam be ham mikhore. 3 rooz pish tasmim gereftam ketab khoonamo jabeja konam va posht va kenare hasho ke saal hast tamiz nakardam tamiz konam. ama che eshtebahi!! ye taare ankaboot poshtesh bood ke hodoode 100 ta pashe o moorche toosh morde boodan. vaghti oomadam motelashish konam manam nazdik monhadem sham inghad ke gardo khak boland shod! bikhod nist inja mellat 6 mah ye bar khoonasho avaz mikonan, choon mitarsan oon hame taar o kesafato y ja bebinan va yaadeshoon biofte ke khodeshoonam injoori daran daghoon mishan.

38 min... in baroon vel nemikone. bazi vaghta mishinam fek mikonam chera adama inghadr az baroon khosheshoon miad. taghriban hamishe ye dalil boode. baroon onaro yaade khaterateshoon mindaze. fek konam choon baroon hamishe ham sedash ham boosh ye joore adam ha rahat tar bahash ertebat bargharar mikonan. yadam miad ba babam ke miraftim isfahan, ghabl az inke hatta khahar hasho bebine, ya khodesh tanhayi ya ba yeki mesle man pa mishod miraft labe abb mishest, va taaze ehsas mikard ke reside khoone. sedaye abe zayande rood dame 33 pol tarif e bachegish, javoonish, va ehemalan hameye khaterati hast ke ba maman babaye khoda biamorzesh dashte.

35min...inja tafrihemoon shode kharid. saat 7 e asr raftim biroon ke berim oon supermarket ke 4shanbe ha haraje mive dare. saat 10:30 e shab az kharid bargashtim! taaze fagaht 2 ta supermarket raftim. khande darish ham in hast ke hich kodoom bishtar az 3,4 ta chiz az har kodoome maghaze ha nakharidim. fek konam ellate inke left midim in bashe ke doost darim ba ham sohbat konim. baad az oon har kodoom mirim aloonake khodemoon va ye gooshe mishinim ta balke khabemoon begire.

32 min ... in orkut ham tekrari shode va ham loos. ghablan miraftim profile mellat 4 ta aks mididm. alan ham mellat shodan zoj va hal nemide ham ye seri aksashoono ghofl mikonan! yeki nist bege akhe mage maraz darin? vase chi aslan aksaro mizarin oonja age mikhayn ghofleshoon konin? ehtiaj ast ehtiaj ast ehtiaj agha!!!.... parirooza ba yeki az doostam bahsam shod sare inke hichi baraye goftan nadaram! engar daste mane. vaghti majbooram faghat beshinam too otagham va internet donbale kaar begardam dige nemitoonam zendegie mohayyeji dashte basham mitoonam?? gir midin be adam ha baba !!

29 min... too mioone in at ashghal hayi k dar ketab khoone rikhtam biroon ye chize jaleb peida kardam. oonam matne nameyi bood ke chand saal pish maah be maah baraey mamano doostan mineveshtam. neshestam be khoondam. ajab nameye jalebi bood baraye kesi ke nevisandash bood. az ye taraf midoonestam nevisandash vaghean haalo rooze khoshi nadashte dar oon doran, va az tarafe dige ham cheghadr say mikarde ba neveshtane in chiza dar name va neshoon dade eshtiaghe alaki say kone ke kasi booyi az chizi nabare. ajab dorooghe bozorgi. hamishe majboor boodam ba inke nemikhastam ye khorde tazahor neshoon bedam. tazahor be doost dashtane chizayi ke aslan khosham nemioomad, tazahor be boodane chizi ke naboodam. hamash ham taghsire khodam nabood. feshare jav, madrese va ... baes mishe adam injoori beshe. vaghti chizi ro ke dorost dark nakardi majboori neshoon beddi ke mifahmi hamin mishe...

24 min... cheghadr khoob migzare. fek nemikardam ke betoonam inghadr benevisam va baadehs ham inghadr vaght zood begzare. in mangie ghable khab khoob adamo be haajo vaaj gooyi va midare. eival tel zang zad..ma berim..