Ezteraaab!!!!!

Bazi moghe ha hast ke man bedoone hich dalili dochare delhoreye khafan misham! yani inke ye dafe fekram be 1000 samte mozakhraf mire ke natijash ine ham betarsam, ham aragh konam ham deldard begiram. az ghadim ke begam, tanha bari ke yadam miad dochare chenin halati shodam, shabi bood ke fardash gharar bood beram avale dabirestan. shab ke raftam bekhabam, fekr mikonam ta 3 e sobh hamin joor fekraye mozakhraf rage be inke aslan mitoonam too dabirestan davoom biaram ya na, be zehnam resid. yadam miad oon moghe shenide boodam ke too dabirestan dige darsi be name oloom nadarim balke tabdil be chand ta ketab mishe ke yekish hast physics. man oon shab inghadr sare inke nakone man too physics hichi halim nashe, tarside boodam ke saat 3 e sobh baad az oon hame kalanjar raftan pashodam raftam ba mamanam ye nim saati harf zadam ta aroom shodam!

in rooza ham az in ettefaghat mifote. gaahi ye id e yeki az dostane 100 saal pisham roshan mishe va man masalan choon az tarighe dige az zendegish khabar daram, midoonam ke masalan in adam ba inke ham senne mane, ham alan dare kaa rmikone ham zan dare ham ... . baad ye dafe dobare in azab shoroo mishe ke nakone man kollan eshtebah kardam va ba in tasmimam ke oomadam inja, kolli khodamo aghab endakhtam? baad dige shoroo mishe. az ye samte ye ramin e mosbat say mikone mano razi kone ke na baba in harfa chie, to karet be in dalayel dorost boode va az ye vare dige, ye ramine olagh, faghat mizane too saram. natijeye in ghazie, ke aghlab barandeyi nadare, ine ke man baad az 2,3 saat darbo daghoon ya velo misham ya khodamo be zoor mashghoole ye kaare dige mikonam.

emrooz va dar vaghe alan dobare injoori shodam. man in rooza daram thesis ro minevisam ke age beshe ta ye chand vaght dige defa konam. moteassefane ya khoshbakhtane in doreye masters e man, kheili bishtar az haddi ke lazeme tool keshid. be joz tanbalie khodam ke hamishe vojood dare, ye chand ta dalile dige ham vojood dare, ama be har hal manzoor inke alan ke daram minevisam, kheili matlab hast ke mitoonam bezaram dar thesis ke khob az sathe ye masters e aaddi balatare. ama ye moshkele digeyi ham ke hast ineke man mogheyi dashtam bazi chizaro yaad migereftam, choon poshtvaneye elmie lazem ro nadashtam va masalan ye seri dars haro nagereftam, az bazi chiza faghat ye chizi dar hadde yek did az ghazie yaad gereftam.

ghazie ine ke hala ke mikham bazi chizaro tozih bedam dar thesis, khob kheili rahat adam mitoone bepichoone va begzare. ama man choon sare ye seri ghesmat ha pedaram dar oomade ta yaad begiram, doost daram ghashang benevisam ke agha jariane in masale chie. in ghazie dar kol ok hast vali dar morede oon ghesmat hayi ke man faghat ey didi azashoon daram, mano gir mindaze. choon baraye neveshtane oon ghesmat ha, man baz bayad dalilo borhan biaram, ke khob balad nistam! injoori mishe ke vaghti ostade adam mikhoone, mifahme ke man ye jayi ro dorost nanevshtam va gir mide.

albate man ba in ghazieye gire ostad ziad moshkeli nadaram va khob inja kheili marsoome ke in neveshte ha, ye 10, 20 bari beine adam va ostadesh raddo badal she. ama khob moshkel az inja shoroo mishe ke ye rooz ziad hosele nadari va az khodet be 1001 dalile dige shaaki hasti va eshtebahi ke mikoni, ine ke mishini paye dorost kardane eshtebahate thesis! injast ke ye dafe sare ye moshekel koochik ke dar thesis dari va bayad ye khorde tamarkoz koni ta hal she, ye dafe maghzet ghaat mizane va baz saro kalleye ramine bad va khoob ye dafe peida mishe!!! va to dobare ghofl mikoni!




bad bakhtie in ghazie injast ke dar injoor mavaghe, tamame khaterate gandi ke be in dava komak midan, mian jeloye cheshmet. in khatere ha mamoolan harfaye ashkhasi hastan ke ye mogheyi barat mohem boodan ya hanoozam hastan va ye jayi sar eye bahsi, shookhi ya jeddi ye chizi behet goftan. dar morede dars, mamoolan in ghazie bar migarde be inke man cheghadr gaavam va dar che jahayi gaav bazi dar avordam! masalan yekishoon ine ke az hich kasi penhoon nist ke man dar jame doostan be "IQ" maroofam. shookhi yajeddi be har haal in esmi hast ke doostan rooye man gozashtan va dar halate addi man ziad behesh tavajjohi nemikonam va kolli mikhandam. ama vaghti berese be in halate delhore, oonvaght in ghazie ke hey dango dango mizane too sare adam!

kholase ke dar injoor mavaghe dar be dar donbale yeki migardam ke bahash harf bezanam va ye khorde az khodam biam biroon. albate in ghazie khodesh hamishe ye moshkeli boode az oonjayi ke, man kollan ye margim ham bashe be kesi nemigam va dar khodam mirizam, che oon moghash ke iran boodam che alan, kollan harf nemizanam va in khodesh aziat mikone. albate baad az ye mogheyi tasmim gereftam be ye seri etemad konam va ye seri chizaro begam beheshoon ama khob oon model komakio ke hess mikardam mitoonam begiram, nagereftam va kholase fayideyi nadasht!

be har hal oza bad kharab mishe va karish ham nemishe kard. in az oon mavagheyi hast ke vaghean mikhay bikhiale hame chishi va faghat bargardi khoonato az yeki bekhay azat moraghebat kone!!!! ama inam dige nemishe choon dige 28 salet shode o bayad khodet be fekre khodet bashi. fekr konam sare hamin chizast ke adam ye dafe ghiafash az in halate shangoolio javooni, be ye ghiafeye por chino mooye sefid tabdil mishe!!

che midoonam valla, inam shode hekayate ma...